so here i am, again. back to feeling like i might as well just do it. just to keep you. just so i keep you happy even if it's making me so far from it. i thought being in a releationship ment you trust someone, you tell them everything there is to know about yourself, and you still like them. you put your heart out for them. so they can pretty much either make or break you. but what is this?
i wait on end, months and months untill your over her. i spend hours crying, days on end being upset but never losing hope of one day wishing we'd be together. maybe i wished it to much, maybe on the way of wishing i imagined what it would be like to much. because never, did i think that while you make me feel the way i am now i'd be so extremely happy. i'm on the verge of backing down, of building back up those walls you broke down. but i know, that even though being here in this spot, on this verge of either falling or breaking i want you. and i want all of you forever. and it hurts, it confuses me. and right now, i wish i just had no emotions. or maybe, i just wish that sex was something that you could take back. because if it was, i wouldnt feel like this. it would make everything perfect and you wouldnt be talking about going and getting with other girls while you go out with me! but while your busy playing your own stupid game with my heart, it's making me wonder is it me you want? or just my virginity?